Maneck studied Beggarmaster’s excessive chatter, his attempt to hide his heartache. Why did humans do that to their feelings? Whether it was anger or love or sadness, they always tried to put something else forward in its place. And then there were those who pretended their emotions were bigger and grander than anyone else’s. A little annoyance they acted out like a gigantic rage; where a smile or chuckle would do, they laughed hysterically. Either way, it was dishonest.”


//Rohinton Mistry; A Fine Balance

after driving for some time,
you seek thrill in overtaking the slow drivers,
the swerving between lanes,
the records you break in reaching certain destinations.
it gives you this hope that anything is possible.

that aside,
there are always times where we try to overtake,
only to realise the other party's travelling at a slightly slower speed than us,
making it impossible for us to accomplish our secret little mission...
and the only way to do so,
was for us to slow down,
let the other party pass,
cut behind them,
then to the next lane,
before we overtake, mission accomplished.

many times we often reach a certain level of achievement which deludes us into assuming our rights.
our rights in always surpassing our rivals,
the belief that we are experienced enough to overtake our peers.
experience, one of the sources of pride.

it's like climbing a mountain,
there are different ways of getting there,
and with a little hard work,
we all make it to the top.
however,not all the routes we choose suit us like a glove,bad decisions happen.
what hinders us from reaching the top may just be our refusal to admit that we've made a bad decision.
our refusal to slow down and let the car on the other lane pass first,
to go all the way down the hill and pick another existing route to the top.
we let pride take the toll,
wasting more time in our attempts to salvage the situation.



sometimes all it takes for us to reach our destiny,
is the courage to take a step back,
and let the others take the wheel while you re-examine the route you are taking,
to have faith that the new route will give you even more victories that could sustain over a longer time.

the past few days have been pretty much a nightmare,
rejections after rejections,
disappointments one after another,
i wasn't exaggerating when i said i was having a 'daniel powter'.

i know bad days happen,
that life is not always a bed of roses,
and even if it is,
its only a matter of time we reach the thorns before we reach the soft ground.

i just need the courage to start all over again.
♥ 12:25 PM