♥ 2:06 PM

“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”
— Chuck Palahniuk


and i thank God that i found the somebody.

it's been 31622400 times of biting at the rate of 1/sec,
527040 minutes of sharing,
8784 hours of forgiving,
366 days of goofing around,
12 months of celebration,
and 1 year of love and happiness.

thank you for the journey so far,
thank you for all that you have done for me.
thank you for showing me what love is,

thank you for loving me.

happy one year my dear.
now we can really call it an anniversary...
and im looking forward to many more adventures with you.

< 3

//pardon me for the three day lag.time difference in Perth is like that.haha.
♥ 1:40 PM

Just so i wont bore myself out...

looking for partners in crime, do let me know if you are interested to check out these places with meeee!=)

Antoinette
Apparently it serves delicious pancakes.
have yet to try though.

30 Penhas Road, Singapore



Epicurious Cafe @ the Rail Mall
Famous for its brunches!!!




Hummerstons Restaurant
11 Unity Street
#02-14 Robertson Walk
It apparently serves the best truffle fries.
Would definitely love a bite of it.




The Merry Men


86 Robertson Quay
#01-02 Robertson Blue


love the cosy layout!!!


Graze
38 Martin Road




Wok & Barrel

♥ 4:29 PM

“Somehow I can’t believe there are any heights that can’t be scaled by a man who knows the secret of making dreams come true. This special secret, it seems to me, can be summarized in four C’s. They are Curiosity, Confidence, Courage, and Constancy and the greatest of these is Confidence. When you believe a thing, believe it all the way, implicitly and unquestionably.”
— Walter E. Disney


it's a known fact that candles melt away to give off light.
a common epitome of self sacrifice.
who knew what one stick could do?
who knew what every single thing that happened to us would lead to?

in every situation, we don't always feel like we are at the upper hand.
even if we are, we might be bleeding on the inside,totally masked by the lifeless flesh.
truth is,we win some we lose some.

who knew these colorful sticks could become such a beautiful sight?
who knew?

i love how these candles melt and coagulate into something so beautiful.
i love how every loss, when seen as a whole, turns out to be a beautiful mishap.

God, be my artist.
♥ 11:47 PM

Day 1.


























Day 2.


Best friends, indeed.

pics credit to my mini one, 1/2 of the blessed duo.:)
♥ 11:06 PM

“…I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling.”
— Haruki Murakami


yes i know it's 4am now,
but somehow i like the peace and serenity at 4am.

been on a hiatus not cause i was busy,
i was just occupied and somehow a pen and paper seemed easier to pen down my thoughts rather than the hassle to turn on my computer and all just to record it.
what ive been occupying myself with besides just staring into space,i'll probably show it next post.
so i finally found the need to blog..again.

it's finally august,
and i woke up feeling like a wreck this afternoon.
might be the dream that i had, but it didn't feel like the case.
unease.
that was the feeling.
still i thank God for filling me up and giving me the peace that i need after the session today.
yes we all need to know how to use grace to live an extraordinary life and all.
but i guess what tonight's session did for me was probably what ive been praying for all along.
i probably couldnt see it right here right now,
but i could see it happening.
renewal.
the glimmer of hope that i have been seeking the past months,
the strength to stand up,
the willingness to be involved again,
the determination to set things right.
the hunger for You.

you see, many of us wants things to be alright.
we lift it onto God in our prayers but wallow ourselves in self pity at the same time,
reluctant to do anything to change our situation,
basically just clinging onto God and expecting God to just make things happen, make things right.
then when things start to show a little hope,
you continue to expect God to make things work when all along what we should be doing is not to wait for the change but to BE the change.

i have to admit i have been praying for a renewal in all aspects of my life,
but all my hopes seem short fused.
and when i thought i was at the lowest of the lowest,
life just shows me that yes, it can get even lower than this.
never underestimate the depths of the earth.
the thing is, God can lift us up,but we need to do the work ourselves to get ourselves OUT of the depths of the earth.
or else there's only so much God can do if we don't make full use of what he has given us.

this few months was a challenge,
but i'm glad i survived despite the odds.
cant believe that it took me months to realise that renewal must first come from the heart for it to happen in every aspect of your life.
putting God first isn't easy cause every choice to put God first involves a sacrifice.
and it just gets harder and harder each time.
cause u realise you've done sacrificing all that's less important and what's left to sacrifice are things that you hold close to your heart.

things are finally taking a turn now,
and this time i am gonna be the change.

get going justine get going.
♥ 4:45 AM

“I think it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. And so you keep the wonderful memories but find yourself moving on. It’s perfectly normal.”
— Nicholas Sparks (True Believer)


words,actions, words.
there are many ways to saying something,doing something.
likewise there are many ways to comprehending things.

sometimes people make things seem like it doesn't matter not cause it doesn't matter,
but cause they are too afraid to show it.
cause that's like saying "there's the hole in my wall"

still, you choose what you wanna see,
you decide what you wanna believe.
even if it is made obvious,
your intentions would not with all entirety be translated to the other party the way you want it to be.

"busy" somehow becomes a good excuse, a good assumption at times to cover up for negligence, laziness.
yes the whole world might think that you are busy,
but the ones who you matter to, overlooks it and try to get to you anyway.

the first "whatever", the first season of silence,
a relationship usually ends way before it actually ends.

expectations overtime wean,
hope dies off,
and as hard as it seems,
a one-man show would eventually end as the last of the audience take his/her leave.
and when the curtains call,
all that's left behind are simply "was" and "were"s,
memories,yeap, memories.
♥ 9:05 PM

♥ 6:42 PM

“Sometimes, truth isn’t good enough; sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.”
— The Dark Night


what happens when assumptions take the wheel and willingness is left out in the cold?
the heart freezes, hardens by first forming a thin layer of ice at the top.

the overwhelming helplessness,
accompanied by the claws of fear.
the sudden surge of faith required just to brave through each and every day,
the tenacious grip on my heart,
where a grueling war boils beneath.

its inevitable to stand alone in what you believe in.
i'm prepared.

what hurts is when i'm forced to stand alone when everyone else is in it together.

God never meant for unconditional love to be taken for granted.
never.
♥ 6:31 PM