Happiness:
We rarely feel it.
I would buy it, beg it, steal it,
Pay in coins of dripping blood
For this one transcendent good.-Amy lowell


Happiness is a state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.
and i'm glad i'm feeling it.=)))

now i'm just gonna be a teeny weeny bit selfish and hope that it lasts...=)))


random:action may not bring happiness,but there is no happiness without action.-bertrand russell
♥ 11:43 PM

funny how things work.

helplessness is when you want to do something about a certain issue
and realise you have no idea what to do about it
not even a clue.
then it leads to frustration cause u crack ur brain squeeze it mash it up and realise
you still cant find the solution.
then somehow or another
just by listening and doing nothing
u realise that..
apart from all that,you learn lots more.

the little things people do that others fail to notice
so little that even the person doing it doesn't realise
until something happens
then they realise
the little things do matter.
cause it came naturally from the heart
and that is how you really feel.

thinking twice before one actually flares up at one
holding on and never giving up on one when all hopes seem lost
thinking of one when you see something which reminds of that one
or simply missing one when you haven seen each other for days.
these small gestures might seem simple and mundane
easy and insignificant
but when you think back
it actually shows how much one means to you.
or how much you have let them into your life.
or how vulnerable you are...


just a penny for a thought.



random: you're too quick for me....-pay it forward.
♥ 11:25 PM

and so..
my carebear was kidnapped one fine night...


anyhow.
today was GREAT!!
i haven't had the chance to chill in town with ms tan on a saturday night for such a long time!
it was simply fabulous!!!=))

so we had shokudo
then we walked to tauhuay to meet weilin
then we chilled at macs with derr and lionel in addition
then we walked back to the car at cine
and we wiped off all the birdshit that rained upon my ever so blessed car
yah
it RAINED birdshit
like piak piak piak piak...
imagine tsunami..
permanent change in paint coating
limited edition mosaic cooper.

and so i finally let my wonderful friend have a first hand experience of what its like to clean up her kids' poo-poo.

today was just lovely!(stares at wl)
=))




♥ 2:27 AM

and so the bad days continue
but i don't feel that bad anymore.

karin flew my aeroplane today to go shopping
and so i was alone for 3 hours today
then my two classmates flew another aeroplane today
and so i had to go class ALONE for another 3 hours.

i feel like the airport.

6 hours of lesson alone.
okay i had other classmates
but its just different
i think the amount of stuff i spoke is not even 1/10 of the normal.
thats the difference comfortable company makes.

85 after that for fellowship
yeayness
BUT
I GOT MY FIRST TICKET!!!!
first ticket in my entire life!
for parking at the loading and unloading bay
50 bucks!
screams.
weirdly i'm not really affected by it..
oh well..

and i had a weird dream
and a weird thing happened.

today's just a weird bad day.
and weirdly
it doesn't seem to matter...


random: children in front of what they want, they won't hesitate.cause they know they cry when they don't get it...
♥ 12:42 AM

1.
random birds which are not potty trained should be shot
2.
3 hours of playing the itouch is a waste of time
3.
so is sacrificing the last bs of the series for family dinner which ended up being cancelled
4.
the feeling of realising that you just wasted 24hours of your life when you could be doing something more worthwhile is really terrible
5.
and being turned down like thrice in a row doesn't help make things better
6.
so is realising that things have come to a point whereby there's no way you could make the situation better or to hide any major no-nos and the fact that it's not what you wanted it to be is right smack in your face.in simpler words,you are at a dead end.

7.
this is just a bad day.

random: love just doesn't happen when you quietly wait....
♥ 9:23 PM

u don't know how much a person has gone through
until u actually know that person..

random thought i got while cleaning my car manually.
yes,i just found out how hole-y my car is...poor thing.

many a times
people only take notice of the major obstacles that one goes through
oblivious to the small ones that may have the potential to blow up into something larger than the major obstacles
and by the time the people around them realise it
and really get down to do something about it
to save the person
or be there for that certain someone.
its already too late.

just a little 'sticky note' i got from cleaning up my dear one.=)

so i was dropped two red bombs this morning
and yes,
it worked better than the normal morning snoozes
but no,
i don't want anymore.
then it was school
before i met junsen for dinner...
it's always nice to just do nothing and hangout.=))


random: have you heard your own heart beat? i heard mine beating today. - HwangBo
♥ 2:04 AM

so i caught transformers!
its quite good!
3 popcorns out of 5
leisure park was like 98% full
unbelievable,totally!
though the kissing scenes were just...awkward.
i seriously don't mind watching again...
at a different angle.
first 2 rows just don't give a good movie experience.

today was great!
met shiming for lunch and to chill
and to settle my craving for gelare.
only to realise
GELARE CLOSED DOWN!!
yes.it closed down!
must be the tuesdays.
sob.
now i have an unfulfilled craving for gelare
and its never gonna be fulfilled.
-mourns-

met julian sonia and serene after that to chill.
yeayness.

was talking to a certain someone about being kpo
and came pass a random thought..
"how do we shut out ears?"
issit possible?
God gave us a PAIR of ears
and did not let it bear any resemblance to our mouths for a reason.
that means
we cant control what we want to hear but we can control what we want to say right
cause there's an open and close for the mouth but not for the ears
thats why there's always "i'm all ears" but never "i'm all mouths"
we are to hear from both our sides and be wary of our surroundings.
now why aren't there ears at the back of our heads or on our faces?
cause there's no space on our faces and if its at the back of our heads we will all have to start shaving our ears?
maybe...

looking at another perspective
He gave us a PAIR of ears so that what we hear can enter from one side and exit from the other side
of course our minds come into the picture
what we want to hear we cant control
but what we want to get into our heads, we can.
shutting our ears is not possible
unless u go for surgery and sew it up
but even so
u still can hear it
just not that loud.
avoiding and running away from problems is never the solution
it just causes the problem to be beyond our visibility range
but its still there.
ultimately its whether or not we want whatever we hear get to us.

hearing's compulsory
but filtering what we hear is definitely a choice...
cause God did put a brain and a heart between our ears for a reason.=)



random: you're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter, like a hard candy with a surprise center, how do i get better when i've had the best?
♥ 2:31 AM

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♥ 2:44 AM

don't ask me to dig a deep swimming pool
fill it up with water
and sell it to some rich millionaire before i've even had enough of it...
enough said.
now i don't even have much choice in deciding how much i wana sell it.
cause everything just seems so logical and reasonable.


its like filling up the holes in your heart
till the time is ripe
and emptying it
and trying to fill it up again.
isn't it tiring for the heart?
and as the whole process repeats
the holes just get bigger and bigger
until removing the filling just becomes so tormenting...


i just hate it when something matters is taken away...
but its just so inevitably logical.



random: i never needed pain...
♥ 12:47 AM

...and i'm never gonna mention it again...till then.




SPLENDID!
thats the word i would use to describe a day like today.=))


chauffeuring day today
met Shuen and Julian after tht for dinner for oyster meesua and random chicken rice the yakitori way.
got some brownie and milk tea which was having their happy hour at 3 for the price of 2
yeah happy hour for milk tea.haha!
so we had our second round at some random spot at the mrt station
before we headed to the arcade
met this super grouchy auntie who gave us attitude.
must be julian's fault.HAHA!
anyway since it was closing
we decided to play with the neoprint machines
with the camera of course.
cheapo i know but it was F-U-N-tastic!
ohman that sounds super bimbo.
chilled a bit with my fav girl after dropping the crazy girl and 'the noise'.
i love days like these.=))




♥ 12:28 AM