♥ 3:33 PM

sometimes,i feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear,
and i can't help but ask myself how much i let the fear take the wheel and steer...


But lately, i'm beginning to realise that I should be the one behind the wheel.


beautiful.
♥ 3:32 AM

i got my momentum back!
yeaynessss
cathay starbucks is quite a nice place to study
after bras macs of course
long john's just really badd
like really bad.
i can finish reading one paragraph and hear crazy ppl screaming their lungs off at nothing
and forget what i just read.

met yulin after tht to accompany her
while she wait for the rp peeps
walked around and headed to mug a bit
met her again after tht and headed home
its been a looonnnng time since we hung out like tht
and it feels gooooood=))



stuff happened.
i have no idea it would affect me so much
a great surge of disappointment just came over me
and i spent my whole walk back praying for things to be well again
that this would be the last time its gonna happen
yeah its really bad
and the last thing i would wish for
is for it to happen to the people close to me.

bahh..

hope for the best i guess.




random: simply too loved to try to come clean with you...
♥ 12:03 AM

17 again with karin sheena zul and the perv.
show was gooooood.=)
so was the company.=))



wandered around after that
cuz i was in no mood to study
and that explained the incredibly random post below
anyhow...










♥ 1:06 AM

Top ten best places to plant that first kiss
or for most people,the 1234692739847th kiss.

1. On a roller coaster. Yes, love has its ups and downs, but that’s what keeps it exciting. Kiss at the crest of that first big hill and hang on to each other as you plummet — talk about a rush!

2. On your desk. Research shows that as many as 61 percent of relationships start in the workplace, and 50 percent of office amours lead to marriage (that includes this writer!). So if you’re flirting by the coffee machine or bantering at brainstorming sessions and it isn’t against company rules, take it to the next level (after hours, please; discretion is important!). Don’t have a desk job? Find the nearest supply closet.

3. At a museum. Appreciating a beautiful work of art together can create passion. Why waste it? Give in, whether inspired by Picasso’s "The Lovers" at the National Gallery of Art in Washington, D.C., Gustav Klimt’s "The Kiss" at Vienna’s Osterreichische Museum für Angewandte Kunst, or a romantic, moving piece at a local gallery. \

4. In the middle of a crowded street. Preferably at rush hour on any given Monday. Life can be mundane and hectic at the same time, but a sweet, juicy kiss can make an average moment special. To get the idea, think of the iconic image of a sailor smooching a nurse in New York’s Times Square on V-J Day, or Robert Doisneau’s renowned 1950 black and white photo, Kiss by the Hotel de Ville, of a couple mid-lip-lock on a Paris Street.
sweeeet.


5. In a dressing room. Are you the type who’s turned on by the idea of a public display of affection — but would prefer some darned privacy? The dressing room rendezvous affords the best of both worlds. Plus, it has illicit allure (sneaking someone in where he or she technically isn’t supposed to go) without setting off theft detectors.


6. On a pile of coats. Preferably, with a stranger you met at the party. It’s a mating rite of passage everyone should experience at least once. Guaranteed to irritate other guests!

7. Upside down. You don’t need Spidey skills to pull it off. One person simply sits in a chair and tilts his or her head back while the other person approaches from behind, bends over and plants one. Or try it with one person lying on a couch, head against the armrest, and the other person standing above and leaning over. It’s a little awkward, a little weird — and absolutely wonderful.

8. In the back seat. Find yourselves a lover’s lane, climb into the passion pit, and neck until you steam up the windows. It’s retro romantic.

9. In a downpour. Yes, kissing in the rain is kind of cliché, but if you haven’t tried it, please do. The reason this kiss rules? Everyone else is frantically running for shelter, which makes time seem to stop for the two of you. It’s surreal and very sexy.

10. In bed, while one of you is asleep. You know from fairy tales that the kiss that awakens can lead to happily ever after. There’s simply no lovelier way to wake up. As the kisser, however, you’re advised to refrain if the kiss-ee is recuperating from a double shift after a bout of insomnia.


caught this out of the 4309380954 articles on msn.

yes i should be studying now instead of reading these redundantly interesting articles that makes no sense.
but i just don't have the momentum to do so.
that thing in my head is not working today
and it refuses to take anything in.

another "i-have-all-the-time-in-the-world-to-do-something-but-is-doing-nothing" moment

bahhh...


random: dependence..is what i don't want to get myself into.
♥ 5:53 PM

oh..and i got blessed.
AGAIN.
God is GOOOOOOOOOD.=DDDDD



happy 6th my dear hahaz_blahz.
i wish i could just erase the z's for u.
oh well.




random: the possibility of things being temporary cause moments of weakness do happen.
♥ 1:04 AM

♥ 1:20 AM

after yesterday
i came to realisation that anything can happen
and i do mean anything.
it has most certainly opened up my views on certain things
and sometimes having no expectations,no doubts and no guesses
is certainly a blessing.
why read so much into things when you know it's just a simple gesture
"call a spoon a spoon and a spade a spade."
sometimes it's just so simple.


4 days in a row with NSM
so it was dinner plus TH
and she screamed at the sight of how badly her "personal space" got violated.
thank God we were in the car.LOL

and so its another friday...



random: But it's not so bad, you're only the best i ever had.
♥ 8:20 AM

i wish i was a sponge....


im really in love...
with sara wee's "because of you".
its really super good.
i wana go timbre soon.
without the cooper of course
cause drinking with eyedrop amount alcohol when everyone else is at least having a cup,
is no fun at all.

im in love...
with bailey's ice cream
and the milky but bittersweet taste that lingers
with eggmilk beancurd
and its constant tingling sweet sensation
with kinder surprise
and its many surprises..
but most definitely..


i'm in love...with you.=)


won't this make a sweet confession...
so sweet its making me hungry.haha.

okay i admit
i'm fasting.


pure randomness.
♥ 3:36 PM

effects of global warming..
this is super scary.
met with this super scary wind on the way home before an impending heavy rain.
the setting reminded me of that in hollywood.
just that this time.
it was real..
creepy.



♥ 12:11 AM

there's no combination of words
i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing
but i can try for your heart....




HAHA!
sunday lunch...


♥ 12:26 PM

it's a necessary decision...



today...
usher workshop.sonia.tauhuay.kimgary's.werner's.yulin.
now where did movies go again?
soon it will be econs.phy.chem and math.
sooon.real soon...


enlightened.
the workshop practically smacked my face and woke me up from the deep sleep i was in.
besides God..
accountability to myself is very important.
i cant be doing what i don't like to do just to please everyone else.
if thats the case
it is definitely not sth i was meant to do
cause God doesn't give u sth u dont like to do.

then again.
its not that i don't like doing it
i just don't like the "tragic accessory" that comes with it.

2009 is THE year
and i definitely cannot afford to waste another year.
when it comes to stuff like studies
it is something that cannot wait
that once the time is over..
it IS over.
on the other hand,
the church won't run away,ministry can wait
that when i come to it
i can actually go all out for it and not do things half heartedly
taking into other considerations like studying.
and at the end of everything..
at the very least...
i can say that i've done the best i could
and also be a good testimony.

be wise i was told.


♥ 10:37 PM

Keep on smiling.
An 8-year-old male sea lion Kanji performs 'Smiling' during a show at Kamogawa Sea Wolrd in Kamogawa, eaast of Tokyo, Japan. (AP Photo/Itsuo Inouye)

throw at me all you want,
that means i'm doing the right things
at the right time
for the right reason.
and that is all that matters.

i will keep on smiling.

and so we had service.
i gave my very first bible study today
it was a new experience.
and one of my memorable firsts.=))

welcome dinner after that!
woohoo!



♥ 12:37 AM

Fear and happiness isn't exactly the same as being in love,but the feelings of intensity are somewhat similar.you go through some rough patches and just when you think it's hopeless, something really good happens. -Tom DeLonge


my hyper days are over...
back to the norm.
dad just threw me a 1 hour reminder to study
and focus on studying.
throwing crude remarks on going to church in the process.
blah.


the draggy lecturer is back today.
and he talllllks liiiikkkkkeee thisssssss.
and he spends quite some time staring at each slide before talking abt it.
and the fact tht he backtracks the slides,doesn't really help.
he's like Mr Slow-mo.

pizza making with the cell after.
fun!=))
i guess that was the one and only highlight of the day.



study study study...
its mugging time.


but i wana watch HOUSE and UNINVITED.

Rarr!

random: Originate, don't imitate. Remind yourself constantly why you do what you do. - Lenka
♥ 12:52 AM

TODAY!!!
LUNCH WITH MS TAN!
was good.
the place was goooood
the sofas especially..
okay the food was hmmm.
but the company was gooooood!!


♥ 9:03 PM