don't go striving so hard for a lamborghini
only to realise u have to work even harder to pay off the COE and the maintainence.
on top of that.
you still have to park ur car at strategic places to ensure minimal damage.

in short,
don't go for things you can never ever afford in the long run.
or worse.
achieve it and realise you don't get to enjoy it at all in face of the upcoming problems.

many of us have desires,wants and goals in our lives
determined to achieve it with whatever it takes
but we never actually sit down and examine our goals in the long term
and foresee what comes after it
until we achieve it and realise it's not such a beautiful dream afterall.

the desires in our lives usually compliments a certain motive we harbour in our hearts
and the motivation is the need to actually reach our motives
which basically are just fame,fortune,social acceptance...etc.
things we thought that would be able to bring us happiness.
but in actual fact,
is really nothing

how many Bill Gates can there be in the world?
by the time you tell yourself you've earned enough money
and is ready to sit back and relax
u're halfway through with your life.
the places you wanted to go
things you wanted to do
seems harder to complete
and needless to say
slower.
the energy and vigour we once possessed
have been used up,slugging it all out
when it should be used to accomplish what few could in life
that is,
to make every moment
a happy and unforgettable one.
every moment of unhappiness and neglect
is a wasted moment.
and many people only realise it when they reach the big 5s and 6s

half of our lives should be used to relax and do what we want and the other half to actually do something for ourselves and work towards a feasible goal
true,
many of us achieve it at the end of our lives
but its the allocation of these times
that actually makes the difference between "dreams"and "reality"

people spend their whole lives pursuing their self portrayed "happiness"
without realising that they could be living it right now.

mugging's painting many crazy thoughts in me
maybe cause my mind's working now.
mwhaha.
i had a great weekend.
or rather a surprisingly wonderful one.=)))


"tomorrow will be like today, but even better."
♥ 12:24 AM

came past this while clearing my mails...

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They are there to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
but they are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled,
their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is time to move on...

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant..

interesting.
people come and people go
holding on to the past is never ending
cause how long can u hold on to it?
a seasonal friend is when you keep assuming that he/she is a "reason" friend
but realise that he/she keeps coming back
and a lifetime friend is when ur seasonal friend lasts through a season after a season
and u realise..
the season never ends.

it all amounts to the "durability" of a friendship
whether or not it can go through the odds
the thick
and the thin.
just like the fertilisation of a zygote.
43093320932988 sperms are released
some drown
some faint
some get knocked down
only one manages to survive
and accomplish the task
survival of the fittest.

the more you know one
the more is expected of you
cause more trust is put in you
and more reliance is put on you
that's why even the closest of friends
may fall out cause of the smallest and most nonsensical reason
cause the higher you climb
the easier it is to fall
its the climbing back up and surpassing the spot you fell from
which ultimately differentiates the true friends from the acquaintances

surprise visit in the evening
with a bag of yummy subway cookies!=))
really impressed with the huge improvement in the "deception" department.
-winks-

so i had my paper
and it was pretty crappy
at least all the questions i don't know
i have 20% chance of getting it right
this time its really by faith.
oh man..

frolick with derr
before heading back to "the world of nerds" with my fav girl and taggerboy.HAHA
splendid day.=))

random: "You're more than enough..."
♥ 1:37 AM

"to grab hold of something new,you gotta let go of the past first."

been studying these few days
at an average of like 10 hours per day
super scary
really thank God for the strength and the focus

khairi's birthday yest.
with pizza and cake.

met the cell for movie..
but the tickets were sold out!
roar.
so we went settler's instead
and it was super duper fun!
yeay!

got a paper tonight.
i'm off to continue my potential habit...
♥ 12:54 PM

MINI's 50th anniversary party today!

so we didn't know where changi exhibition center was
so all we could do
was to follow this vintage mini mini there
with the probability that the driver herself may not know the way too.
but thank God she knows her map. so we arrived and only half of the picture was out
so there was supposed to be 150 coopers there
to form this 50th anniversary logo
which was supposed to be taken from the top.
and obviously when they say register at 1
u don't really register at 1
so everyone was late
and everything was only out by like 330
thats like 2 hours plus of wasted time.
rarr.
but still..
seeing 150 mini coopers
vintage or new or modified
was a rare sight.=))


♥ 2:04 AM

"routines,though boring, is essential"

we cant have a non routine life
where everyday is totally different
it will probably put our lives in jeopardy
it's all about finding interest in our routines
and to let it develop into a habit we enjoy
even if we just go with the flow to do what our emotions leads us to do
we'll only realise that we are just floating around at the end of the day
waiting for time to pass
with no specific purpose at all
routines originates from purpose
cause there must be a reason behind our routines
else why do we do it so consistently?

just like the engine of a car
the purpose of our routines acts as an important driving force
if we are following up on a routine for a wrong purpose
chances are that we would probably grow weary overtime
wondering why we are doing this in the first place
just like a car thats constantly fed with diesel oil instead of unleaded petrol
convenient and comfortable to the pocket it is
but how beneficial issit to the engine?
and how long will it last?

nevertheless, a car is at its worse state when the petrol consumption is mixed
sometimes it moves on unleaded petrol
sometimes on diesel oil
it destroys the car's engine
and before you know it,
it's time to send it to the repair shop.
likewise if our purposes is mixed
its as good as no purpose
cause it just complicates everything
making us unsure of our purpose
which eventually leads to us being fedup with ourselves
and finally giving it up
cause everything seems just too complicated and beyond salvation.
wasted time is what comes out of this whole mixed-up-no-purpose-routine
just like the pollutive black fumes which comes out from the "mixed-up" mobile.

now let me re-introduce my take on routine,
"routine, though boring still, is essential only with the right purpose.otherwise, its just plain rubbish."

cell group today was AWESOME.
to my dear whisk.
yes,you were right.the word was perfect.=))
♥ 12:50 AM

dinner at one of my fav places.
=))


that's it.
no more playing.
no pain, no gain.


it's really painful..
roar.
♥ 11:42 PM

this lookalike purposely came to park beside me.

and i'm the inconsiderate one parking at the handicapped lot.
mini-goody-twoshoes and mini-evil.hawhaw.

for the 10mins it was there.
i felt like an exhibit
cause passerbys were pointing and staring at our cars like we planned it.
while the driver went to pick up a magazine.
yes, a magazine.
can't she pick it up at the petrol station?

not annoyed,
just amused.

supper with marcus and terrence today was great!=))
and i got my eggmilk tauhuay
and super spicy and yummy stingray!
i'm a satisfied girl!
=))

♥ 12:49 AM

♥ 10:57 PM

what happens when coincidence is not a coincidence after all?
♥ 1:16 AM

♥ 12:50 AM

♥ 9:27 PM

it feels good to start the day early
and with a prayer meeting.
feels like you have all the time in the world.=))

today was productive=))
although i spent like an hour tapping away on my itouch
thanks to supermarket mania.

glad i'm getting my momentum back.

can't wait for another early start.=))

random: how do i get closer to you when you keep it all on mute...
♥ 12:13 AM

i've decided to go on an "online shopping" fast for 2 months.
=)))
so anyone who catches me online shopping can slap me.


ok, i was only kidding about the second part.

i had self reflection time today
one whole hour in fact.
and i came to realise that
after almost half a year of driving
i've developed...


motion sickness.

especially when it comes to 1 hour bus rides with drivers who brake every 5 second
1 hour = 720 brakes
i bet his leg joints are loose.
but i still survived.
and i managed to swallow back my puke.
HAHA.kidding.

one day of missing morning prayer meeting is enough to send me on a guilt run
i'm very supercalifragilistically determined to wake up tml.
yes!
6am!


random: you got me right where you want me....
♥ 10:49 PM

national day can be soooo tiring.
so i still rmbr my pledge
both in chinese and english
so proud of myself.=))

today was lunch with family and the 5 of us ordered a total of 17 dishes!
yes we are growing....
met up with derr and yulin after at ion!
yes my first time
and i got to try dunkin donuts
and see my pretty emma watson!=)))
met the cell at anchorage after for awhile
before heading down to shu's for her bday party!
wanted to rush down to catch the fireworks
but derr didn't want to leave shu's unless he manages to fix the chair
which he obviously didn't
and it was left shaky and dangerous at shu's
yes.
derrick chen cant even fix a simple four legged chair.
oh well.
so we din manage to catch the fireworks at all
all we caught were boom booms THROUGH THE RADIO
how pathetic is that
at least people still have the HD TV
visual pleasure
and all we got was two boom booms and that was it
my invisible national day fireworks.
bahh.
so we headed down to boat quay for timbre
and TIMBRE WAS CLOSED
GREAT!
totally
so we abandoned derr and headed back to shu's with shiming
before prata susu at prata house
=))
chill out's are great
caught where got ghost
disappointing it was.
but a good laugh it definitely was.

and so..
that was my 9th august.
im gonna go catch some winks before the morning pm.
yawns.
♥ 3:21 AM

how weird can things go..
very.

thats when your comfort zone is disturbed
and thats when you really step out of the zone
and do things you think you will never do.
achieving things you never thought you could.

now tell me about the comfort zone thing again...
♥ 2:22 AM

"..instead of saving juliet.i should have kicked her off the balcony."

HAHA.



random: don't let them throw me away...
♥ 11:08 PM

-decided to remove the weird pick cause its just too weird...and disturbing-
i feel so weird
it's like a mixture of sadness and boredom and stress and happiness and whatnots
all mashed up together like mash potato.

seems like my attempt to have a break failed real badly
and i was sooo looking forward to it
so now
all i can do is sulk at my super longggg weekend with the noisy helicopter sound and the red and white thing.

oh well
it's just soo...weird.
♥ 10:01 PM

21 min of batt left..
a quick one.

i got dug up at 9am today cause my mom couldn't sleep
and so she wanted me to chauffeur her around to deliver her stuff
only to realise all the receipients would only be ready at arnd 11
SO
i woke up early to do nothing for 2 hours.
great!
which reminds me of yest night.
a certain someone finally remembered to reply me regarding some chem notes
and so i made my way down to pick it up
only to realise
the notes that certain someone found were from..
dunman high.
so that certain someone offered her SELF WRITTEN chem notes which she used to paste around her room.
WONDERFUL.
so we ended up with desert at east coast road.=))))

im having fun wasting my time
when the clock's ticking away
and my prelim's a blink of an eye away
GREAT.

currently learning to appreciate the situation i'm in,
whatever it is.

today was GREAT
minus the early morning that is
chickenrice with my favourite girl
then lesson
and there was a surprise test
and all i could do was to be surprised
which i really was
met up with my fav again for eggmilk tauhuay
one whole night of food talk the previous night has certainly promoted my taste buds to its excited state.
frolick after!
yummm.
dropping by at orchard central in the end
to surprise weilin
and that
was my wonderful tuesday!
yeay.=))

-19min batt left-
♥ 12:32 AM

the only constant is change.
as it's commonly used.
nothing stays the same
the world won't stop spinning
just to prevent things from changing.

changes are necessary and inevitable
whether or not you like it
we can choose to reject it
and continue sulking in the pathetic situation we are in
or embrace it
and make the best out of it.

sometimes all we need is..
a slap.
yes one big tight slap
best if the feeling lingers for awhile
to realise the kind of loserish situation we are in.

why let ourselves be on the losing end?

God wants the best for all of us
but whether or not we want it
is still up to ourselves.


now i just want the best
and nothing less...
i've chosen to change.
♥ 3:55 PM

no..i'm not going to act like nothing happened.


overdue pictures!


♥ 11:05 PM