♥ 4:56 PM

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.” — Woody Allen

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♥ 10:50 PM

plans plans plans for december...

JB
Work
Icecream Outing
Barrage picnic
xmas
candlelight
car wash
studyarea cleanup
bangkok
xmas presents
I love you Newyork
Sherlock Holmes
gossip girl marathon
heroes marathon
timbre
eggmilk tauhuay
frolick
girl's day out
dino skype
flea
room clearup
growth
tan

=)))
♥ 1:49 AM

today's paper was reallly good.
praise the Lord.really.
to think i was suffering from temporary insomnia yest night.

caught paranormal activity
ohmy..it's really good.
i lasted till the last 2 scenes
and the sound was enough to creep me out.
and the moving cam wasn't helping much
had a real bad headache and i almost puked my milktea.

met dan after for leader's meeting
and i finally had my long craved ban mian!!!
yeayness!


one more left!!!
all's well that ends well
so i'm gonna make it end well for sure.=))
woohoo!!!
its freedom isle after that.
though it already feel so.

weirdly.it doesn't feel as joyful and celebrated as i thought it would be.
maybe's its just the thrill of not having something you cant at the moment
in addition to knowing the fact that you would in due time
so when the moment arrived
the anticipation and the motivation and the celebration just died down
yes,im just one of those people who go on and on pursuing "short lived joys"
where the thoughts and desires are enough to keep me going.

feels like i have all the time in the world now...
not true,not true at all.


i want to feel okay. i want to feel important to you. i want to feel like you care about me as much as i care about you. i want to be right and not have you resent me for it. i want to to talk to you. i want to tell you everything and not be afraid of your judgement. i want to believe you. i want to trust you. i want to know where i stand. i want to laugh with you. i want to stop crying over you. i want to have great nights and better days. i want to listen. i want to be a part of your dreams. i want you to be a part of mine. i want to know you are interested. i want you to initiate conversation. i want you to choose me over someone else. i want to know you think about me. i want to feel special. i want to write and know you’ll read it. i want you to see. i want you to feel. i want you to know. i want to want you, and i want you to want me too. i just want to, okay?
-littleteaspoon

♥ 1:24 AM

"Sarcasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the person who doesn’t get it."
— Washington Post’s Mensa Invitational

my sarcasm level's peaking an all high these days.
must be the active usage of my brain
dropping sarcastic,lame comments are like my forte for now..
i guess stuff like that,witty it may seem,always carries a tinge of truth.
haha.

chem paper today
was like ???
it was the same blurred feeling i had for my econs paper 2
the same peaceful feeling

trust upon God is the only thing i should do and can do.

Hermione: The most powerful love potion in the world. It’s rumored to smell differently to each person according to what attracts them. For example I smell fresh lemon grass and new parchment and spearmint tooth paste.

and i smell mint.
♥ 4:47 PM

"People aren`t afraid of saying “i love you.” they’re afraid of hearing the response."
— After D Corned Beef & Cabbage

Yesterday was awesomeeee
i'm glad i decided to go for service in the end.=))


maybe like poles do attract.
and when that happens.
the magnetic field's beyond boundaries..
it's phenomenal.
=D
♥ 1:46 PM

"Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away."
— Philip K. Dick

blow me away...
♥ 12:19 PM

"i think i found the wrong hero to save me."
♥ 10:01 PM

"The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you’ll never find it."
— C. P. Snow

yes everyone's in pursuit
of something great
something that will make them feel better,look better
something they presume will make their lives better in one way or another
whatever the motive is..

just like You.
pursuing a heart after nothing else but You.
one that thinks of You first thing in the day
last thing in the night
seeking You be it good news or bad news
trusting their lives upon You
and never questioning your purpose..
I finally realised that all along You were looking for nothing else..

...but a perfect fan.
♥ 6:03 PM

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♥ 1:48 PM

"Just because she’s likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn’t mean she’s your soul mate."
— Rachel Hansen (500 days Of Summer)

haha.
♥ 1:40 PM

my current love.=)
♥ 12:48 PM

"Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large groups."
— Unknown

i totally agree.


yesterday was real good
the word blew me away despite my super high and intense fatigue level.
and everything after that was just...nice.=)
had an intense mugging session with my fav whisk
who is still here now.haha.

today's gonna be another good day.
i can feel it already.
blackeyedpeas just couldn't stop repeating itself like a broken record.
=))
♥ 2:34 AM

Virginia Woolf's suicide letter to her husband, Leonard Woolf. (28th March, 1941)

"I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer."
♥ 2:23 AM

10 more to go.

"There are only two kinds of people who are really fascinating: people who know absolutely everything, and people who know absolutely nothing." -Oscar Wilde

the weather today's real good.
it's been raining for like the whole day.
if this continues
i think cooper will turn into a sponge.

got hit with a sudden thought during class today
and it bugged me for the rest of the day
i wanted to share it with my close ones
but i just didn't know how
and where it was heading to
it just seemed like a thought floating in midway
and i haven't quite figured out the reason behind it
whatever it is.
it just stuck to me like a slug.
and the thought of it just excited me.
the whole thing seemed so fascinating in an absurd way...
♥ 1:43 AM

"Everyone looks retarded once you set your mind to it."
-David Sedaris

yes some moron went to complain about me parking at MY house handicap slot
and i got dug up from my nap by the security guard to shift my car
in the wet weather
when the handicapped slot wasn't needed
the moron just couldn't stand the sight of a cooper in the handicapped slot
and decided to spread the joy of his/her cheap thrill.

not like i wanted to park there.
some inconsiderate driver went to park at my slot and chased me out of my territory
so i had no choice but to park somewhere else around the area.

first there was complaints about cars driving too fast
endangering the kids
and POOF
they made double humps
which kills the car suspension
and now they are dropping stupid complaints as to why is there a red car in the handicapped slot
when they don't need it.
the best part?
a zillion cars park there.
cause their slots got taken up by some inconsiderate puss who goes around dropping secret complaints.
smooth criminal indeed.

so i just found something to do after my A's.
that is to camp at the carpark
hoping to catch mr/mrs/ms handicapped-aware
tow his/her car to the condo at the other end of the road
clamp it and throw the key into the river.
though i much prefer to lock the driver up in his/her car and gas it.
but that's too barbaric.

ohwell
i'm as calm as a lava filled volcano
and i feel like a heated up ventilator.
but i'm done venting.
=))


on a sidenote,
i found a new addiction.
=)
♥ 2:35 PM

lost track of time.
mondays tuesdays wednesdays...
don't exist anymore.
i name my days by subjects now.
♥ 2:45 PM

Thank God for today.
Thank God for the people around me.
Thank God for just being there....

=)))

just 3 more weeks.
♥ 7:44 PM

headed bras basah in search for second hand ten year series
saw a fellow nerd looking at the same shelf as me
and i couldn't help but feel the adrenaline rush,
the urge to quickly scan through the shelf looking for the book i need
for fear that he may be looking for the same book as me
the whole scene beared resemblance to a robinson sale where the women would start grabbing any cheap buys they could get their hands on and "kiasuism" was proclaimed loud and clear.

having found the book i wanted
the chorus of "we are the champions",
alongside a wide smirk on my face simply couldn't be contained anymore.

i'm turning into a hopeless nerd and it's freaking me out.
♥ 6:39 PM

funny how the love for an object,subject,person,.....etc can annhilate the mundanity of things.
even though it's the same thing over and over again
it just doesn't seem to matter,
you never get tired of it.

mugging's driving me pretty nutty.

was greeted with a burger like sandwich with one hotdog and two eggs with great compliments from jianhao in church!yeayyy!!!blessed.

and my fav whisk came to study with me.blessed-square.

and i finally got to skype with my dinooooo.blessed-cube.

then i received a great word.blessed-tothepoweroffour.

and i managed to not give in to fatigue this time.
yeayness.

2 weeks to total freedom.
anticipation overdose.


=))))))
♥ 5:11 PM

♥ 11:41 PM

i could feel the fantabulous essence of the day.
this 2 weeks is gonna be real good.

=)))

praisetheLord.

The moment has come to face the truth
I'm wide awake, and so are you
Do you have a clue what this is?
Are you everything that I miss?
We'll just have to wait and see
If things go right we're meant to be..
♥ 2:43 PM

when you only come into contact with a few people.
when you start giving up on things you normally do.
when you can withstand your temptations,
turn around and focus.
when time pass so fast you don't even realise it.
when every minute feels like a 50 carat diamond.
and all that fills your mind is God physics chemistry math economics and general knowledge
you know you are doing good.
ready for something big...

that goes BOOMZ.haha.
ok the last part was a bit of a spoiler.

times like this are always the differential part
when the ones who you matter to are set apart from those that are just simply leeching on you.
when you start to list down in your heart who are the people you want to be there for.
funny how minimal the change in the list is..

When everything seems all over,everybody seems unkind.
I'll give you a four leaf clover,take all the worries out of your mind.
Let my love open the door to your heart.
♥ 10:19 PM

7am.
that's the time i got home today.

the night was good.
i had willy wonka, snow white, aladdin,fairies, vampires,ghost brides all around me.
oh and eeyore and piglet were eating infront of me.
a rare sight indeed.

then we had breakfast in town + oogling at transvestites.

the fatigue,
the fun,
the sight of the rising sun,
staying overnight really reminded me of some things,some people,some stuff that were lost in transition.

there's never 100% rentention cause there won't be space for the new.
it won't be called transition if so since there's no change.
some things just..fade away.

looking on the brighter side,
it signals new stuff coming your way.
and our lives go through a renewal.
not a repetition of what has been done
giving you a chance to correct the wrong.
but an opportunity to look at things from a different angle,experience something different.
we need the latter more than the former to move forward.

time waits for no man.
so does change.
the refusal to budge when change comes will only result in our lives remaining at a standstill.
only those that moves along with it will be able to catch the essence of it.
just like God.
it's a matter of the heart.
♥ 4:14 PM