wisdom.

that's what i used today..and i'm glad i did.

a moment of sanity can turn the whole table around.

now that my dad's back.

i'm going on a movie marathon these days and nothing beats cuddling at home on my warm sofa,catching a movie.

bonus if the movie's good,

relaxing if the movie's stupid.cause that means no brain cells would be needed.

SOT this week has been awesome

in fact,i haven't found a none-awesome point about SOT.

it's a different experience altogether

and i'm just surprised at how energetic i feel every morning despite the 6ams and tormenting jams.

met with a car accident on thurs though.

praise God my car escaped with only two dimples.

mom's big day on friday at the white rabbit's

the food was good.

but somehow the foie gras tasted weird,and the weird taste seemed to linger.

of course mac and cheese totally made it all worth it.

it's just superb.

the most mind boggling topic came to their mouths again.

yes,it's two weeks away and i have zero ideas on my dashboard.

looking at the facebook status feed just helped eliminate ideas i thought creative.

the moment pictures of the parties popped out on facebook,

you know it's fresh no more.

if others can think of such an idea,it's common,not genius.

so yeah,

i'm back at square one,

or rather,i've never left that spot.

it just hangs around for a moment and retreats to the back of my head when things start churning up...

procrastination's my best friend.

"what you mean can't suck?everyone can suck."

haven been blogging lately cause i've been busy.

every minute counts now.

i.t's like a ticking time bomb.

started SOT.

and we proudly named ourselves xiaolongbao.

everyone's so exciting and full of life.

we just rock our own socks.

needless to say the afterclass fellowship's superb.

in short,i'm lovin SOT and my team.=)

and then there was the fellowships in between with everyone else

and my never ending tuitions

with students who tested my patience as well as those that sent me laughing my heads off at their innocence.

will upload the pics soon.

cball challenge today

and i'm scorched.

i can proudly show my tutees who haven't seen a lobster or a monkey's butt before what they actually look like.

and the paint used to write our team names on our hands left a disturbing mark on my hand after the tan.

it's so bad it bears a close resemblance to an abstract piece of art.=(

learnt a lot this week

but what really set me thinking was the fact that we have to renew our minds every now and then.

that a moment of vulnerability could change everything around.

guarding both our minds and hearts has never become more important.

that no matter how well we do,

there are always moments of weakness,

where fear and doubt set in and we start to question our beliefs and our motivation behind what we are doing.

confusion eventually results and we usually make the wrong decisions.

we are human afterall.

imperfect and vulnerable.

stay rooted,so that no matter how much we sway to the north or south or east or west,

we will still look down and realise there we are,right where we are supposed to be--fulfilling God's destiny for us.

it takes half an hour more to go home

and it encourages people to run and cycle on roads.

and on top of that,

they assign stupid policemen which sends you in circles.

i seriously abhor marathons/night races.

yes,one day.

but for now,i am thankful with what i have.

this period of time have been tough,real tough.

it's like the bed of thorns after falling on the bed of roses.

the period right before you know where you are landing at.

and i thank God for showing me what i have,

what i failed to see while i was enjoying the good times.

that through it all,

only the people most real to you stay.

and those are the ones you must hold onto no matter what,

cause even after you gave up on yourself,

they didn't.

to the one i keep thinking was my age and the my SOT-bestfriend-to-be and NTB,

thanks for the encouragement and all,really warmed my heart.=))

to the one who's not here physically but always here now and forever.

thanks for all the encouragements and just being there,for really praying for me and all.thanks for really wanting to be there if you could.thanks.

to the one who i only mentioned once that i was getting my results,you were one of the first who remembered and it really took me by surprise.i know i have said this once but i will say it again,thanks for being there,for all the encouraging videos,the verses and checking up if i was okay and all,you don't know how much it meant.THANKS.

to my fav's boyfriend,thanks for offering help,and words of encouragement..i really dont mind the extra As you have you know.

to my secondary-sch-sweaty-flag-raising-neighbour,thanks for helping me think of options,for just being there and of course for the big warm fuzzy hug which beats hot chocolate anytime.(thank God you dont sweat anymore.haha)love you a whole lot.

to my HBB-fav,haha,thanks for being there from before to after,for remembering despite all the many issues clogging up your micro-brain(haha.kidding),really appreciate it and of course,thanks for the hug.i know i needn't say much.a hug pretty much meant it all.love you lots!

to the few in E490,thanks for the concern and all,glad to have you guys in the cell.=)

to the laundry woman from IR,the DIVA girl and the cheapo,thanks for going through the process with me and especially to the laundry woman,receiving first hand whining from me.

to the people who asked,especially those that i haven seen for the longest,thanks.

and must importantly,

thank You,for blessing me with all these people,for everything that's going to happen though i have no clue at all,but i'm trusting you with all i have and believing that something great is going to happen.

so i got my results,

it was below my expectations.

the amount of improvements was not sufficient to compensate for the time spent.

nonetheless,i'm keeping my options open.

maybe the way i thought just wasn't exactly the way God planned it.

things weren't as bad as it was in the end,

credits to the people around.

after doing things all over again,

i'm ready to move on,ready for a new adventure.

i'm ready,

surprise me.

HA-HA!

pardon me for the sudden influx of posts.

"you are important to me."

simple these 5 words are,in fact, they are one of the first few words we learn..

but it takes a whole great deal to feel it.

it means you are a priority,

it means you are a weakness and a strength at the same time,

it means you've got a the land space of a football field in one's mind and heart.

there are many people we deem as important,

generally teachers,family,friends,girlfriends,boyfriends,soccer teams blah blah blah.

but can we really have so many important people in our lives?

wont that make everyone just like every one else at the end of the day?

just like the river theory everyone has used at a certain point of their lives to compare the level of importance of themselves and others they feel rival to them.

if so and so falls into the river and i fall into the river,who would u save?

if there were so many important people in our lives

when all fall into the river,

wont it look more like a pool party rather than a calamity?

seriously,situations like this don't require any thinking,

you just jump in and join the party.

if you can't win them, you join them.

important people,

being a term of exclusivity should always be limited and minimal.

never let anything that's genuinely important seem like a common commodity.

or be ready to be disappointed when you aren't reciprocated.

one of the worst feelings one can undergo is when you realise you aren't important to the one who's important to you.

that's it.