“I think it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. And so you keep the wonderful memories but find yourself moving on. It’s perfectly normal.”
— Nicholas Sparks (True Believer)


words,actions, words.
there are many ways to saying something,doing something.
likewise there are many ways to comprehending things.

sometimes people make things seem like it doesn't matter not cause it doesn't matter,
but cause they are too afraid to show it.
cause that's like saying "there's the hole in my wall"

still, you choose what you wanna see,
you decide what you wanna believe.
even if it is made obvious,
your intentions would not with all entirety be translated to the other party the way you want it to be.

"busy" somehow becomes a good excuse, a good assumption at times to cover up for negligence, laziness.
yes the whole world might think that you are busy,
but the ones who you matter to, overlooks it and try to get to you anyway.

the first "whatever", the first season of silence,
a relationship usually ends way before it actually ends.

expectations overtime wean,
hope dies off,
and as hard as it seems,
a one-man show would eventually end as the last of the audience take his/her leave.
and when the curtains call,
all that's left behind are simply "was" and "were"s,
memories,yeap, memories.
♥ 9:05 PM

♥ 6:42 PM

“Sometimes, truth isn’t good enough; sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.”
— The Dark Night


what happens when assumptions take the wheel and willingness is left out in the cold?
the heart freezes, hardens by first forming a thin layer of ice at the top.

the overwhelming helplessness,
accompanied by the claws of fear.
the sudden surge of faith required just to brave through each and every day,
the tenacious grip on my heart,
where a grueling war boils beneath.

its inevitable to stand alone in what you believe in.
i'm prepared.

what hurts is when i'm forced to stand alone when everyone else is in it together.

God never meant for unconditional love to be taken for granted.
never.
♥ 6:31 PM

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
— Steve Jobs




tapping every tile on the wall,
hoping one of them would be the button to the door.

painting pictures of what's behind the wall became the fuel to my perseverance.

yes God, i'm still relentlessly tapping,faithfully painting with all i have.
♥ 4:11 PM