today was a good day.

i was just looking through twitter and feeling so amazed that so much can change within a short time,
or maybe cause time feels slower here..
but still, so much has changed.

i used to think whoever was close to me before i left got close to someone else cause that someone else was somewhat like me and it made up for the part of them that was lost when i left.
then i realised that i might have been the someone who was there to fill up the part that was lost when another person left..and it really made me wonder how tangible and fragile human relations are.
that they can just be replaced with time.

so i banished the egoistical thought,
and counted my blessings,
and made a mental post-it to make sure the holes in the heart i make in the days to come can only be filled by me.

and yes, the holes will be limited edition.
♥ 3:25 AM

“I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It’s when you know you’re licked before you begin, but you begin anyway and see it through no matter what.”
— Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

this constant change in environment is finally taking a toll on me.
the emotional strain from finally being comfortable alone then to being surrounded by love ones then back to adapting to being alone again is just...tantalizing.

my heart feels like a rubberband.



♥ 2:19 AM